Fond Remembrances of my Childhood

I loved Teddy Bears and Barbie dolls when I was a kid. Well even now I have a liking for both. I never owned a barbie doll of my own in childhood. When we once went to exhibition I cried a lot to buy me a barbie doll. But my father said a serious no. Though he did bring me a very nice doll than barbie when he went to UK. That's the way my father was, he always wanted the best for us, but wait for it sometime to get the best among anything.

And I used to be so excited about summer holidays. As we(me nd my brother) could go to Hyderabad to meet our cousins. My cousin pratima was our leader, me nd my other cousin sirisha used to follow her. If she was the teacher in our school game, I and sirisha used to be her students. We used to play a lot with gorugulu(small kitchen toys) and we also tried sometimes real cooking in that age gathering papers and putting it to fire. Well we never succeeded though. As my other cousin pradeep and my own brother sandeep used to sneak into our play room through the window to check what we were doing and complain about it to our grandmother(nanamma). She used to scold us for doing so.

Other than that we sometimes tried new plays like puppet show too. We used to enact a story and our grandmother used to be a good listener and a good viewer. I miss her a lot. And when we grew a bit old we also tried our hands on Rangoli. We used to wake up early in the morning, all the three of us used to put rangoli in the front yard of our grandmothers house and our elders used to judge whose was the best. If not any of the above things we(all my cousins) used to all sit together to watch the cartoon shows on the tv.

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I actually remember every small incident from my childhood. May be it has something to do with me being a Cancerian. I just can't forget anything.

Why these regional differences?

I hate the discrimination based on either region or religion. The recent attacks by VHP in Uttar Pradesh and our own Hyderabad politicians quarreling for a separate Telangana is another political gimmick. I seriously don't understand why there is a need for separate Telangana and what difference would it bring us?

These politicians for their own known hidden motives are rubbing these regional differences on the innocent minds of people. Previously people used to fight on religion discrimination. Now it would also add fuel to the region biasing. Seriously if they say ok for a separate Telangana, I doubt within few days people will also start protesting for separate Andhra, Rayalseema. Rather than creating such regional tensions, it would be better if the Government allocates equal amount of money to develop different regions and also equally distribute MP and MLA seats among all the regions within the state. People should not fall prey for this political gimmicks and should stand united in such situations.

From my childhood I grew to respect every region and religion equally. Actually my family also helped me in tuning my mind in such a way not to discriminate people. As my big family is a mixture of people of origin from different regions and religions. (Andhraites, Kerelaite, Tamilians, Malaysian, Muslim). We respect each others culture.

I know I have touched a serious issue. Anyways this is completely my own opinion. And sorry if I had hurt anyones feelings or sentiments through this blog.

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Sorry and Thank You are the words which I use regularly. But, only when I really mean it.

Exams-Tensions-And the Sleepless Nights

I am not very smart or intelligent, but a hard working student. So, the thought of exams makes me feel nervous like any other normal student. When I finished my last exam of my Masters I thought I was relieved of those tensions and those sleepless nights reading for the exams.

But I was wrong. I didn't know that the real exam starts when you start searching for a job. The endless nervousness and tensions which you go through makes you feel the exams in the student life was far more better than the job search. Atleast, when you are done with your exams you are happy the next day, the tensions used to last for only some days. Finding a job in this dropping economy has brought me even more sleepless nights. I don't know when I would finally land up in a right job for me. But that would be the happiest day of my life.

Thinking of exams, reminds me of a funny incident. We had 2 exams consequently and we were doing a lot of reading. I was doing combined studies with Sindhu, Jeelan and Bala Abhirami (Those exams days I stayed at Sindhu's & Bala's place). We finished our first exam and everyone was happy. There was a gap of 3 days for our next exam. I was happy that atleast now I could read the last book in the Harry Potter series, it was published 4 days before but I couldn't read it because of my exams. I read it half till late 1 am in the night and slept off.

May be Sindhu couldn't take the exam tensions to her heart. She gave such a big scream as if somebody has stabbed her in the sleep in the midst of the night. Everyone from other rooms Bala, Sridevi came running to her including me in the same room. She woke up and said Did I talk or mutter anything in my sleep. Imagine the situation of me with all the characters in the book revolving in my mind when I went to sleep and her shriek. I was so afraid to go even near her to ask her what has happened. We laughed a lot before we went to sleep again and even the next day remembering the incident. Such was our tensions during the exams. :) :)

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I generally don't like reading novels. As my uncle has rightly said reading novels makes your mind roam in the dream world. Keep your mind in the real world and don't waste your time reading those novels. But again, this is completely my opinion too. I followed his advice, but I don't know somehow I got myself interested in reading this Harry Potter Series. This is the only one children novel which I ever read fully and liked it very much.

My Family

Hmm how can I forget to mention about my family.
Ours is a very close knit traditional family. My mom and dad both are my best friends. Yes you are my good friend to annaya. Though we almost disagree on most of the things, I know you are there for me always.

I was pampered a lot with love, care and affection from my childhood by all the members of my family. I am as close to my uncles, aunts (Kavitha atha nd Hazar atha) as I am to my grandparents.

I learnt being talkative, caring, patience, forgiveness, sensitivity to things from my mom. Ofcourse being sensitive at the drop of the hat too. I am definitely my mommy's girl.

When I first came to US for my Masters I made friends with Sindhu, Bala, Jeelan and Jay (Sindhu, Jay nd Jee are my best friends now). Within weeks of our friendship they came to know of all my family, uncles, aunts, cousins names. I used to repeat their names so many times in all my discussions. I am that close to my family.

There were petty quarrels too. But never did it break the strong bond among us. I am very lucky to have been born and brought up in this family.

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If you really feel good about anything about a person. Tell them that, it would make them happy. But remember that it shouldn't be flattery, it should come straight from your heart. I actually read this in a book "How to win friends" by Dale Carnegie or "Chicken Soup for the Soul at Work" I don't remember. This works out not only in friendship, but also in maintaining positive relations among people.

My New Found Hobby

In my kiddie days, when I was very happy, angry about anything or sad I used to write a letter addressed in the name of God, putting all my thoughts in the paper and then throw it away. It might sound silly to anyone and me too if I now think of it. But that's the way I used to relieve myself of anger or sadness.

And then when I grew up I had a very old diary wherein I used to write down about my thoughts. I don't know if it's still there in my pile of books. Have to check it out when I go back to Hyderabad.

Slowly I realized that I enjoy writing. This blog is not for anyone else to know about me in detail but for my own personal satisfaction. Some say that you have to do whatever that makes you happy and I am happy writing my thoughts in this blog.

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I am sorry if I hurt anyones feelings through my blogs knowingly or unknowingly.